Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Lost myself

I step outside myself and observe

all the things that everyone else witnesses

I almost never understand how I really am

and I have no control over it.

The thoughts in my head are only of confusion

rambling different ideas,

too fast to comprehend.

My mouth lets out words that aren’t thought out

those that are around me are lost

they don’t understand.

Because they can’t see past the outside

it often feels like I can’t either.

I know it’s not a state I like to be in

but I have no control over it.

Crying is now something I don’t bother to do

one can only cry so much and then it’s pointless,

now all I’m left with is a blank

a blank stare

a blank feeling

a blank being.

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