If maps lead to places, can they find fate?

I'm like a wave and i'm breaking.

Today was a bad day, a bad day to say the least. Screw you nick habel. Does it look like I'm worried about pleasing other people? No. I'm ana, and that's who I plan on being, regardless of petty opinions such as yours. I wear leggings. I wear leggings a lot because they're comfortable, they're me, deal with it. I like what I wear, and if you don't like it, then keep it to yourself. If me wearing leggings is such an inconveince to you I am sincerely sorry. Worry about something that actually uses brain cells, or something. Do I comment on your fugly face? No, I don't, because believe it or not I understand that people have feelings, but that's probably something you've never really considered. Criticism. It's rough. I'm not really a fan of it. Teachers. That's another thing that I can't handle very well, but like that's anything new. LADOGA. I need an escape. I have so much boiled deep inside of me that I don't even know what to do with myself. I cried a little bit today, that never happens. Vulnerability scares me, since it makes me realize I'm not always going to be immune to my feelings and that I care too much. Maybe that's my issue. Damn you emotions. Oh and Ian, you're not cool. Grow up. Texting me saying stupid things just adds to my rage, but I guess you really don't care. You're a self centered jerk. I'm just going on and on, but I can't help it. People should be able to express how they feel, in my honest opinion. Music, loves, I'm happy I have at least a little reprieve. Hallelujah for that. Summer, get here, soon, please. I'm dying a little more everyday. I'm becoming really desperate and lost with everything that is going on. I'm going to end this post with the hopes of having a good nights sleep. Sleep. I love sleep, I don't have to think and I can just be me, without being looked at through the social telescope of life.

Motion...Devotion.

Somedays, life feels like it needs to slow down. today wasn't one of those days. it was a day where everything and everyone bothered me, and running was a complete challenge physcially and mentally, but i got through it. (thank god.)
i don't have much to say rather than this tylenol pm is kicking in and i need some shut eye so the pace of tomorrow doesn't exhaust me like today did. goodnight world.

My favorite things.

There's a lot of things that make me pissy, but a lot that really make me happy. I feel like sharing my list of happy.

1. thunderstorms
2. music
3. being creative
4. this amazing guy
5. dancing
6. coffee
7. reading
8. being spontaneous
9. helping people
10. running
11. challenging myself
12. sunshine
13. friends (kylie, she wanted her name mentioned.)
14. my mom
15. my cat
16. getting a good grade on a test
17. ferris wheels
18. swimming in the lake
19. painting
20. listening to my record player

What's your list of happy?

Live, today.

Like a bird on the wire,
Like a drunk in a midnight choir
I have tried in my way to be free.
Like a worm on a hook,
Like a knight from some old fashioned book
I have saved all my ribbons for thee.
If i, if I have been unkind,
I hope that you can just let it go by.
If i, if I have been untrue
I hope you know it was never to you.
-Leonard Cohen

Happy birthday to a dear friend.

So, everyone knows how i usually feel about a lot of people if you really know me. Caitlyn really tolerates my shit, and not many people do, so I want to thank her for that. Caitlyn, you're 16 today! Make it awesome. See you at the game later. Happy Birthday Friend!!!!

Weightless.

The show called The Buried Life is my new favorite. I love it. It's about doing what you want to do before you die. I think it's important to do so. What do I want to do before I die?
1. See the world. Really see it.
2. Learn French.
3. Get my dream job.
4. Run mararthons.
5. Climb Mt. Everest.
6. Write a book.
7. Meet Christofer Drew.
8. Wake up in a foreign city, ready for whatever.
9. Love someone more than anything in this world.
10. Study yoga in India.
11. Swim with Sharks.
12. Adopt a Child.
13. Make an impact on the Earth.
14. Wake up to the love of my life, day after day, eventually.
15. Get a tattoo. (Maybe.)
16. Surf.
There's more, but for now those are some. What do you want to do in life?