The new singularity.

And no group of people, is as important as a single person. There's no them that's more important than a you.

Cooperate with me, while I lose it.

People always point to substance abuse, mental illness, heredity, and other excuses for their insanity or the dysfunction in their lives.

I think people destroy each other.
Not any of that other bullshit. I think it's an obvious thing.
Something everyone overlooks in search of some other appropriate answer.

I can't handle feeling this suffocated.
Right now I feel so fucking suffocated by the way my parents demand so much out of me. I don't want to follow rules because I do not feel like they are doing any good for me. Making the right choice isn't some sort of impossible task.

So tonight I just left. I ate like you wanted me to. I was angry, I am still angry. The way you demand I sit down and eat when all I want to do is stride out my frustration on a road that won't tell me where to go or how to get there.

So I do as you say while in my mind I'm screaming. I'm shouting and I'm pissed off and I just need to be left alone.

I slip out the back door and let myself run, let myself go. It's wet and dark and quiet. I wish there were more nights like this. I turn up the hill and head into the darkness.

My legs are sore and my playlist is dull. I take street after street slowly winding myself down. Breathe, exhale deeper, you're losing yourself Ana.

Miles later I start thinking again. I don't feel like your rules and demands are choking me. For once I'm not worried about anything, as I'm in my element.

I'm alive and I feel free.
I refuse to suffocate in your problems, I'm running with my legs and my mind goes blank.

It's so easy for people to hurt one another, to alienate someones soul.

Advice

I find these words to be quite profound.

"The art of living is neither careless drifting on the one hand nor fearful clinging on the other. It consists in being sensitive to each moment, in regarding it as utterly new and unique, in having the mind open and wholly receptive."
— Alan Watts (via thisisendless)

Some of my favorites.

serendipity, sigh, gratitude, thalassic, iconoclast, hallow, liquid, motivation, music, elements, cosmos, stars, dolphins, unique, summer, energy, light, cuddle, flowers, effervescent, taproot, continuum, aurora, autumn, rapture, starlight, beloved, encapsulate, hyperbole, illuminate, jonquil, memoir, pique, pernicious, poniard, violet, ecclesiastic, resonance, ephemeral, gossamer, willow, dove, sleep, slumber, brooding, revolution, space, rhythm, clarity, rare, quixotic, vulnerable, atonement, wanderlust, scent, touch, enchanting, whimsical, engaging, stimulating, inquisitive, cautious, comfort, mermaid, water, art, calmness, simpleness, logic, myriad, satiate, floating, smile, happy, wish, forever, menagerie, wild, crave, convoluted, darling, magical, bungalow, kerfuffle, oomph, zephyr, solipsism, azure, virago (haha), suppose, auspicious, chimerical, decadence, prose, lovely, fierce, lily, incandescent, complicated, believer, essence, existence, cathartic, cascade, juxtaposition, hemoglobin, fabulous, shine, doll, lace, mirror, tea cup, tea party, mansion, god, quote, lovable, numb, chocolate, sugar, sunrise, universe, brilliant, linger, entropy, sparrow, whimsy, evoke, tracasserie, excellent, lossom, novelty, wondrous, meadow, psychedelic, adventure, bracelets, intrigue, heart, honest, joy, joyful, prosperity, amethyst, peculiar, wunderkind, candid, insomnia, mantra, tentative, murmur, splendiferous, mesmerizing, majestic, lust, veranda, subside, insatiable, mellow, heartache, fancy, fruitcake, rose, charismatic, extraordinary, maestro, supernova, metaphysical, prodigy, cosmopolitan, personification, revolutionary, dubious, wonderland, veil, ardent, maudlin, serenade, mystify, sweet, discovery, efficacy, swirling, fiasco, impasse, reminisce, allusion, euphoria, brittle, twinkle, conundrum, mage, sentient, fay, goetic, fripery, flourish, opalescent, classic, lackadaisical, fisticuffs, brilliant, sincerity, lengendary, grace, voluptuous, dulcet, fusion, harmony, fascinating, deeply, elusive, euphoria…

But as far as the growing up process goes, every once in a while, you have to ask yourself the question: “Well, what about my faith in humanity? Doesn’t it restore some cosmic equilibrium of beauty? Doesn’t it make them, or at least me, a better person?” And then one day, you realize that the answer to that question is: “No. It just classifies you as naive.” And you keep believing partially out of spite, and partially out of the denial that you were born with, and that is when you become a grown woman.

Sometimes when I look at you, I feel as if I’m gazing at a distant star. It’s dazzling, but the light is from tens of thousands of years ago. Maybe the star doesn’t even exist anymore. Yet sometimes that light seems more real to me than anything.

Haruki Murakami, South of the Border, West of the Sun

Residence

This house looks very magical,
like it's just crawling with endless possibilities.
Creativity could strike at any second,
The space would make me feel at ease.
Free.
Crisp and sharp like a pine needle.
Sea salt in the air
Mixed with pure joy and contentment.